Monthly Archives: July 2018

The Abrahamic Covenant with Israel


1 Now the LORD had said unto Abram (referring to the Revelation which had been given to the Patriarch a short time before; this Chapter is very important, for it records the first steps of this great Believer in the path of Faith), Get thee out of your country (separation), and from your kindred (separation), and from your father’s house (Separation-UR in Iraq up north where the Tigress and Euphrates meet, which is where Abraham was born. ) unto a land that I will show you (refers to the fact that Abraham had no choice in the matter; he was to receive his orders from the Lord, and go where those orders led him).

2 And I will make of you a great Nation (the Nation which God made of Abraham has changed the world, and exists even unto this hour; in fact, this Nation “Israel” still has a great part to play, which will take place in the coming Kingdom Age), and I will bless you, and make your name great (according to Scripture, “to bless” means “to increase;” the builders of the Tower of Babel sought to “make us a name,” whereas God took this man, who forsook all, and “made his name great”); and you shall be a blessing: (Concerns itself with the greatest blessing of all. It is the glory of Abraham’s Faith. God would give this man the meaning of Salvation, which is “Justification by Faith,” which would come about through the Lord.

3 And I will bless them who bless you (to bless Israel, or any Believer, for that matter, guarantees the Blessings of God, (AMERICA!) and curse him who curses you (EU –Palestine!)
to curse Israel, or any Believer, guarantees that one will be cursed by God): and in you shall all families of the Earth be blessed. (It speaks of Israel, which sprang from the loins of Abraham and the womb of Sarah, giving the world the Word of God and, more particularly, bringing the Messiah into the world. Through Christ, every family in the world who desires blessing from God can have that Blessing.

4 So Abram departed, as the LORD had spoken unto him (this was his first surrender; there were seven in all: 1. He surrenders here his native land; 2. He surrenders his family; 3. He then surrenders the vale of the Jordan; He then surrenders the riches of Sodom;

5. He surrenders self;

6. He then surrenders Ishmael; and lastly,

7. He surrenders Isaac; each painful surrender was followed by increased spiritual wealth); and Lot went with him: and Abram was seventy and five years old when he departed out of Haran (the Holy Spirit notes Abraham’s age upon his departure, signifying that the revelation may have come several years earlier).

*** The land God gave Abraham, included what is Palestine now, Jordan, and half of Syria. What is Iraq now was MESOPOTAMIA, the very first civilization. Iraq was sacred, and we never should have gone in. (My opinion as others.) What is now Mosul, Iraq was then Nineveh, the Assyrian City. And Jesus also spoke Assyrian. South West Iraq was Babylon, the Tower of Babel, and King Nebuchadnezzar’s hanging gardens. Up north in Iraq was a flat plateau of monks that had been there for 2,000 years with scrolls, many that became lost when GW Bush sent in troops and the fighting with ISIS. Not to mention so many antiquities that were destroyed!

5 And Abram took Sarai his wife, and Lot his brother’s son, and all their substance that they had gathered, and the souls that they had gotten in Haran; and they went forth to go into the land of Canaan; and into the land of Canaan they came. (From Haran to Canaan was approximately 350 miles. Abraham had 318 trained men with him [14:14], meaning that they were trained to fight as soldiers. In fact, there may have been as many as a thousand people in this entourage.)

6 And Abram passed through the land unto the place of Sichem, unto the plain of Moreh. And the Canaanite was then in the land. (Abraham finds the hateful, impure, and hostile Canaanite in God’s land. That being an example, the young Believer expects after conversion to find nothing in his nature hostile to Christ, but is distressed and perplexed very soon to painfully learn that, alas, the Canaanite is in the land, and that he is now commencing a lifelong battle with what the New Testament calls “the flesh.” — Williams)

7 And the LORD appeared unto Abram (though the hostile Canaanite was in the land, the Lord was there as well), and said, Unto your seed will I give this land (the “seed” through Isaac, and not Ishmael; Satan has contested this Promise from the very beginning, with the struggle continuing even unto this hour, as it regards Israel and the Palestinians): and there built he an Altar unto the LORD, Who appeared unto him. (The “Altar” and its Sacrifice represented the Lord)

8 And he removed from thence unto a mountain on the east of Beth el, and pitched his tent, having Beth-el on the west, and Hai on the east (“Beth-el” means “House of God,” while “Hai” means “the heap of ruins”): and there he built an Altar unto the LORD, and called upon the Name of the LORD.

9 And Abram journeyed, going on still toward the south (“south” was toward Egypt, which direction Abraham should not have gone). ABRAM’S SOJOURN IN EGYPT 10 And there was a famine in the land (a famine in God’s land? it was allowed by the Lord as a test of Faith, as everything for the Believer is a test of Faith): and Abram went down into Egypt to sojourn there (the Lord didn’t call Abram to Egypt, but rather to Canaan; better to starve in Canaan, than to live in luxury in Egypt); for the famine was grievous in the land.

The Expositor’s Study Bible (Kindle Locations 1067-1072). Kindle Edition.

*see from Sheikh below:


A Sheikh from Jordans prominent Adwan tribe said Israel belongs to the Jews and that Palestine claims to the territory is false. Sheikh Ahmed Aladoan of Amman, who made this remark based his assertions on the Koran, saying “those who distort the Koran are liars and questioned the origins of the word of Palestine.
“Allah is the protector of the Children of Israel”, he insisted, saying there was no such place as Palestine in early history.  The Muslim cleric also Palestine of violence saying that they kill children, the elderly, and women that they hide behind human shields and have no mercy for their own children.   Last year Sheikh Aladoan came to Israel and paid a visit Safed Rabbi Shmuel Eliyahu . The visit filmed by Orot TV in Israel. Saying “there is no name “Palestine for this land” in the Koran and that Arabs should not therefore fight for that land. “

*Genesis 12 and 13, God gave that land to Abraham and the Jews through Isaac. At that time the land not only included Israel, but what is now called “Palestine, Jordan, and half of Syria.” To the Arabs, through Ishmael, when Sarah banned him and Hagar his Egyptian mother to the desert, God gave oil.

I have this book, the Bible as History, which is fascinating. Much information from finds and
Archeology that bears out scripture and the Bible as truths.


Mesopotamia refers to an ancient region of south west Asia between the Tigris and Euphrates rivers in modern-day Iraq. The region’s location and fertility gave rise to settlements some 10,000 years ago, and it became the cradle of some of the world’s earliest civilizations and the birthplace of writing. It was first settled by the Sumerians, who were succeeded by the Akkadians and later by the Babylonians. During the course of history, it become a part of almost every major empire. Since Mesopotamia was home to so many nations. Perhaps as old as 10,000 years BC as Antarctica.



The Sumerians and Akkadians (including Assyrians and Babylonians) dominated Mesopotamia from the beginning of written history (c. 3100 BC) to the fall of Babylon in 539 BC, when it was conquered by the Achaemenid Empire. It fell to Alexander the Great in 332 BC, and after his death, it became part of the Greek Seleucid Empire.

Around 150 BC, Mesopotamia was under the control of the Parthian Empire. Mesopotamia became a battleground between the Romans and Parthians, with western parts of Mesopotamia coming under ephemeral Roman control. In AD 226, the eastern regions of Mesopotamia fell to the Sassanid Persians. The division of Mesopotamia between Roman (Byzantine from AD 395) and Sassanid Empires lasted until the 7th century Muslim conquest of Persia of the Sasanian Empire and Muslim conquest of the Levant from Byzantines. A number of primarily neo-Assyrian and Christian native Mesopotamian states existed between the 1st century BC and 3rd century AD, including Adiabene, Osroene, and Hatra.

Mesopotamia is the site of the earliest developments of the Neolithic Revolution from around 10,000 BC. It has been identified as having “inspired some of the most important developments in human history including the invention of the wheel, the planting of the first cereal crops and the development of cursive script, mathematics, astronomy and agriculture. From Wikipedia
In Julius Caesar’s time, Rome was in complete control of Italy, with provinces scattered around the entire Mediterranean and tributary kingdoms further inland. Julius went on to consolidate Gaul, had a look at Britain and hated its weather, and was preparing to do in the Parthian empire when done in by his protegee Brutus and other conspirators. However the Roman Empire was long in place before he was born. Look for a long list of conquerors, with names like Scipio, Paulus, Sulla. *Remember that the Antichrist is coming out of the Old Roman Empire.

Most Important Dates In History (Not including New Testament Events)
The Age of Early Christianity
3 BC-33 AD Birth of Jesus -Crusifiction (**recorded between 30-80 AD)
The main sources of information regarding Jesus’ life and teachings are the canonical Gospels of the New Testament found in the Christian Bible. The Gospels are the written records of Jesus’ oral teachings as recorded by the evangelists Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. Christian historians place the first published record of the Gospel around 50 AD.

AD The Age of Early Christianity
64 The Fire in Rome (Nero)
70 Titus destroys Jerusalem
c150 Justin Martyr’s Apology
c156 Martyrdom of Polycarp
177 Irenaeus becomes bishop of Lyons
196 Tertullian begins writing
c205 Origen begins writing
270 Anthony begins his life as a hermit

The Age of the Christian Empire
312 Conversion of Constantine
325 Council of Nicea
367 Athanasius’s letter recognizes NT canon
385 Bishop Ambrose defies the Empress
387 Augustine’s Conversion
398 Chrysostom becomes bishop of Const.
405 Jerome completes Vulgate
432 Patricks mission to Ireland
451 Council on Chalcedon
529 Benedict founds his monestary
563 Columba goes to lona

Christian Middle Ages
The Birth of Muhammad (570-632 AD)
570 Muhammad was born in Mecca either on July 6th, or August 20th of 570 AD.
590 Gregory I becomes FIRST POPE!
*Note, remember Jesus was a Jew, Rabbi in the Jewish Tabernacle. When he was crucified the Jews were split and half followed the disciples with his teachings
and the other half stayed in the Tabernacle in Jerusalem.
694 Synod of Whitby
716 Boniface sets out as missionary
731 Bede publishes Ecclesiastical history
732 Battle of Tours
800 Charlemagne crowned emperor
863 Cyril & Methodius go to Slavs
909 Monastery at Clurry founded
988 Conversion of Vladimir (Russia)
1054 East-West Split
1093 Anselm becomes Bishop of Canterbury
1096 Crusades launched by Popes speech
1115 Bernard founds monastery at Clairvaux
c1150 Universities of Paris/Oxford founded
1173 Waldensians founded
1206 Francis renounces wealth
1215 Innocent II calls fourth Lateran Council
1273 Aquinas completes Summa Theologia
1321 Dante writes Divine Comedy
1378 Catherine of Siena & the Great Schism
c1380 *Wycliffe supervises English Bible translation
1415 John Hus burned at stake
1456 Gutenberg prints BIBLE ***First!!
1478 Spanish inquisition established -**Queen Isabella & the pogaming of Jews
1492 Christopher Columbus discovered America – Took Jews to flea Spain                                            **These Jews who later became businessmen, also bankers in America,                                               helped build America after the American Revolution. Some said Columbus                                       too, was Jewish.  I found no proof as yet.  God said He would bless those                                           who blessed HIS people, and that was His promise to America!                                                       1496 Savonarola burned
1512 Michelangelo/Sistine Chapel (St. Peter’s)
*** During the 1400’s into the 1500’s also was history with the Borgia’s.
Rodrigo Borgia, who bought his way to become Pope Alexander VI,
including having his own marriage annulled with two sons, and one
daughter Lucrecia. He too filled the Vatican with his mistresses openly.
During this time too, Mary Queen of Scots had been placed as a child
in France by her mother for safety. Prince Francis and she fell in love and
married young, But, Francis died of an illness very young, at which time,
Mary went to her native Scotland. History bore out the struggle with her
half-sister Elizabeth Queen of England. Elizabeth’s hatred of Mary, was
overwhelming and didn’t want her to reign in Scotland fearing she would
take over England. Eventually Mary was captured and kept in the tower of
the palace in England for over 20 years, before Elizabeth had her beheaded.
As in 1534 below, Henry the VIII denounced the Catholic church and had
one of his wives Ann Bolin beheaded on false charges so he could remarry,
making himself England’s head of the church, which ushered in Protestants.
Thus we see the anarchy and vie for power and wars that ensued.

The Age of the Reformation
1517 Martin Luther posts 95 thesis (Challenging the Catholic Church.)
1523 Zwingli leads Swiss Reformation
1525 Anabaptist movement begins
1534 Henry VIII and Act of Supremacy
1536 Calvin’s Institutes
1540 Jesuits approved by Pope
1545 Council of Trent
1549 Cranmer and the Book of Common Prayer
1559 John Knox returns to Scotland
1572 St Bartholomew’s Day Massacre
1609 John Smyth baptizes self & first Baptists
1611 King James Bible published
1620 Pilgrims sign the Mayflower Compact
1628 Comenius driven from his homeland
1646 Westminster Confession
1648 Quaker’s founded

The Age of Reason and Revival
1622 Rembrandt paints Prodigal Son
1675 Spencer’s pia Desideria
1678 Paul Bunyan’s Pilgrims Progress published
1685 Birth of Bach and Handel in Germany
1707 Watt publishes hymnal
1776 America’s Revolutionary War and freedom from
1727 Morovian Awakening
*** The great hundred year Holy Spirit led prayer that lasted
Into America, spreading to Azuza St Awakening as well
as The Great Awakening during our Founding Fathers
drafting the Constitution and all our laws.
1735 Great Awakening (Holy Spirit Revival, John Whitefield)
1738 John Wesley’s Conversion
1780 Robert Paike’s begins Sunday Schools

The Age of Progress
1793 Carey sails for India
1807 Wilberforce leads abolitionists
1811 Campbell begins Disciples
1812 Judson’s in Asia – * Also America’s
War of 1812 when the Brits burned our
White House when Madison was President.
1816 Richard Allen AME church
1817 Elizabeth Fry begins prison ministry
1830 J.N. Darby and the Plymouth Brethren
1830 Finney begins urban revivals
1833 John keble & start of Oxford movement

*** During this time came the unrest in Germany &
WWI as well as the Communist Bolshevik Revolution,
later the writings of Ayn Rand speaking out against the
viles of Communism, when she saw her fathers business
ravaged by Russian soldiers. The soldiers also murdered
Czar Nicholas, his wife and 5 children. Horrible bloodshed
over a false ideology that has never worked EVER, be it
Russia, China, No. Korea, Vietnam, or Cuba!

The Age of Ideologies
1919 Barth writes Commentary of Romans
1921 First Christian radio broadcast
** Also during America’s Great Depression.
1934 Townsend begins Summer institute of Linguistics
1945 Bonhoeffer executed in Germany in his attempt
to kill Hitler, also the end of WWII.
1948 World Council of Churches formed
1949 Billy Graham’s Los Angeles Crusade
1962 Vatican II
1966 Chinese church grows amidst cultural (Communist)

**Present  – We are and always have been a Christian nation! **

Palestinian/Israel History  


600,000-10,000  Palleolithic and Mesolithlic period.  Earliest human   remains in the area are                                (found south of the Lake of Tabariyyal,   date back to ca 600,000BC.)

10,000 – 5,000 Neolithic period.  Establishment of settled agricultural  communities.

5,000 – 3,000  Chalcolithic period.  Copper and stone tools and artifacts  from this period found                           near Jericho.  Bi’r As-Sabi’ and the Dead  Sea.

3,000-2000  Early Bronze Age. Arrival and settlement of Canaanites    (3,000 –2,500 BC).  Ca.                                1,260 Israelite conquest of Canaan.

965 – 928 King Solomon (Sulayman) construction of the temple in  Jerusalem.  In the very place                  that the wailing wall still stands  where the Jew prays…and on the SAME spot as the                       Dome  of the Rock is too.

721  –   Assyrian conquest of the Kingdom of Israel. (Assyria now Mosul)

586 –  Judah defeated by Bablonians under Nebuchadnezzar (modern  day Iraq) deportation of                      its population to Babylon and destruction of Solomon’s Temple.

539  –  Persians (Iran now) conquer Bablonia (Iraq) allowance of deportees to  return and r                        rebuild   new temple.

333 –  Alexander the Great conquers Persia (Iran) and Palestine comes under the Greek rule.                  (Persia also called the Persian Empire {later the Ottomans}  located in west and                               southwest  Asia.  At it’s height it extended from Egypt  and the Aegean to India.  Since                   1935 was renamed IRAN.)

323  – Alexander the Great dies,  alternate rule by Plolemies of Egypt and the  Seleucids of Syria.

165 – Maccabees revolt against the Seleucid ruler (Antiochus Epiphanes-Greece) and establish                 an independent state.

63 –     Incorporation of Palestine into the Roman Empire. Way back then.  Before                                  Jesus.. Arabs still didn’t have Palestine..Rome ruled. They all took from the Jews.

37 –    It remained for Herod the Great to rebuild he wall of the temple. But they were                              Romans, not Jews. And Herod and Pilate  chose the priests for the Temple and                                 continued  after Jesus was Rabbi in the temple.

20-19  Herod’s Temple began (Using the 46 years of John 2:20.)

4-5 –   Unclear as to the Birth of Jesus.  Though he died several years prior to Herod.                              3 BC-33 AD Birth of Jesus -Crusifiction (**recorded between 30-80 AD)  He arose not until                 the 4th century.   

4    – Beginning of the Jewish Passover.   


70 –  Destruction of the Second Solomon’s Temple by the Roman Emperor Titus.  

132-135 Suppressors of the Bar Kokhba revolt.  The Jews were barred from Jerusalem  and Emperor                 Hadrian builds pagan city on its’ ruins.    

330 – 638 Palestine under Byzantine rule. They won in war from the Romans. Christianity                 Too spreads.  More than 300 years After Christ died.      

638 – Omar ibn al-Khattaab enters Jerusalem and ends the Byzantine rule.   

661- 750  – Palestine administered by the Umayyad chaliphs from Damascus and they                                          contruct  the Dome of the Rock. (Abd al-Malik, ) and Al-Aqsa in its current shape                                       (al- Walid, 705- 725)  Constructed right OVER the same spot as Solomon’s Temple  by the                      now standing wailing wall.  Hence the Arab /Jewish battle for thousands of  years, and                             Islam.    

750- 1258  Palestine administered from Baghdad by the Abbasid caliphs.

 969 –  Palestine administered by the Fatimids from Egypt as rivals to Baghdad.

 1071 –  Saljuqs (originally from Afghanistan) rule Jerusalem and parts of Palestine   (officially still                      under ‘Abbasids).   

1099 -1187  The Crusaders arrive and establish the “Latin Kingdom of Jerusalem”.     

1187 – Salah al-Dun al-Ayyoubi (from Kurdistan) conquers the crusaders in the battle of Hitfin, kicks               them back to Europe and frees Jerusalem. Palestine administered from  Cairo.  

1260 – The Mamluks succeed  the Ayyubis, continue to administer Palestine from Cairo and                              Kick the Mongols in the battle of  “Ayn Jaluut near An-Nasira.   

1291 – The Mamluks (Khali bin Qalawuun) conquer the last crusader stronghold in Akka and                           Qisariya.     

1516-1917 Palestine incorporated into the Ottoman State and administered from Istanbul.                          (IRAN)  ** Note they took over all of Europe and mid east. and it was Winston Churchill                who ended it prior to WWI.   

1832 – 1840  Moh’d AM Pasha (Egypt) ruled Palestine. Ottomans take over after.   

1876-  1877  First Palestinian deputies from Jerusalem attend the first Ottoman parliament.                                  (remember ruled from Persia (Iran.)    

1878 –  First  Zionist settlement (Petach Tiqva) established under agricultural community.  

1882 -1903  First wave of Zionists (25,000 strong.) enters Palestine as illegal immigrants from                  Eastern Europe. (Yet all that land was theirs in the beginning.)   

1882 –  French Baron E de Rothschild starts backing Zionist activities in Palestine financially.   

1887 –  Ottomans divide Palestine into three districts. Jerusalem (follows Istanbul), Akka and                               Nablus (follow the ‘willaya of Beirut).   

1907  – Theodor Hertzl , a journalist from an Austro-Hungarian origin published Der Judenstaat  (The             Jewish State) advocating the establishment of a Jewish state in Palestine or  Elsewhere.   

1886     JCA (Jewish Colonization Association) starts  aiding Zionist settlements in Palestine.   

1887    First Zionist congress in Switzerland issues the Basle Program calling for a home for

            the Jewish people in Palestine and establishes the WZO (World Zionist Org. to that end.)


1901   JNF (Jewish National Fund) set up by the5th Zionist congress to acquire land (in Palestine) and           to make it Jewish.     

1904-1914  Second wave (around 40,000 strong) of Zionist illegal immigrants arrive in Palestine                           and increase the Jewish percentage  to 6% of the total population.   

1909  – First Zionist Kibbutz (collective farm), establishment of Tel Aviv north of Yaafa.

1914 – WWI starts and later World War II  to 1945. Hitler and Jewish anti-semitism and more                        than 6 million Jews gassed and killed.      

1922-1948  Jerusalem was under the League of Nations and Great Britain. And the British                                  occupied all Israel and Palestine.  Until President Harry Truman remembering his  mother’s                   praying, took the side of  the Jews and made Israel the State God meant it  to be.   

1947  -After much devastation in the Jewish –Arab conflict, following Truman and the partition                       resolution when Jerusalem became internationalized, the old city was left in the hands of the                Jordan Kingdom and the New Israel, as much of the Jewish quarter of the old  half had been                    destroyed and the “Wailing Wall” becoming inaccessible to the jam. The  armistice agreement                of 1949 made a division between the State  of Israel  and the  Hashemite Kingdom of Jordan.    

1950  – Jerusalem became the seat of the Israel government, but the city remained divided. The                         Only connection being  the Madelaum Gate, through which passage was restricted by                            both countries.  Jerusalem still despite all keeps the aspect of the Holy City.   

1966 – Jewish population was 164,000 , the Arabic 46,000.  The presence of synagogues,                                  churches, mosques, monasteries, witness to the universal importance of Jerusalem,  where                   various races and creeds mix.  The seat of ecclesiastical authority for many faiths.

        *** Don’t forget too, that 1967 Israel was in the 6 day war with Egypt when Nassar was                                       alive. But God was in charge! 



Growing In God

There are two ways a believer can establish or strengthen his heart, either by grace or works.  For a new Christian just recently saved, they have not naturally  had the teachings that many of us have had after being saved for 15-20 years plus.  So, we refer to these new Christians as baby Christians, still on milk. When they have walked in the Lord for some time, and received “with a humble spirit” the teachings of Christ, we say they are now on meat.  Which refers to the special offerings which the priests ate.  Hebrews 13:9.  “For it is a good thing that the heart be established with grace, not with meats, which have  not profited them that have been occupied therein. ”  They had no right to eat that which was served in the tabernacle. The Jewish Christians who were the first recipients of the epistle understood the Hebraism of  “meats” to refer to the ceremonial rituals, etc. of Levitical law.

Then it goes on to say that it is a good thing that the heart be established with grace. Hebrews makes it clear that good works does not get you into Heaven; which may be as a “works mentality” , because God still requires good works, Ephesians 2:10 which result from His working THROUGH His people.  Two things to notice about legalistic works or “dead” works in Hebrews 6:1, 9-14 are that works do not profit and  works “occupy”.  So when we are a work-a-holic or always have an excuse, “I don’t have time”, “I don’t feel like it now”. Is it dead  works by self, and self-imposed or is it works by grace and the power of God? Do we let God lead us through His Holy Spirit and HIS work, or are we always still in the world doing our own thing in self?  Are we serving? Or being served?  We all have certain gifts and we all can be used in some way for our church.

Legalism is a futile effort.  They have such misguided regulations which have never proven useful and place so much dependence on doing this “this” way or faultfinding, etc. that they derive no benefit.  A works mentality does not promote true godliness. Martin Luther found that out too, as a Catholic monk scrubbing the abbey floors not receiving salvation.  Being bound in legalism, it produces an unloving Christian, that becomes judgmental and harsh.  It is mans attempts to be like God.   It doesn’t  work.   It stops grace and mercy from manifesting  and brings on a critical spirit.  We can try, through our own law of works, self-efforts, or various exercises to fulfill through human ability the righteousness of God’s word in our lives.  Maybe we start out in earnest, but our means of going about it are all wrong.

We’ve all sooner or later too, been around Christians that are always complaining and have a critical spirit.  There is no balance.  If we all have certain gifts, which I believe we do, then we should know when to absorb the good and spit out the bad.  We should learn discernment and have it in our  lives in all things.  If there are new Christians that are not yet that deep in the Lord, and prayer then they cannot be expected to receive as we do.  Sometimes you really get it!  One day it will click and the message will be understood.  That is like a lightbulb going on..a real breakthrough.

When I was new in Christ, I wanted it all fast!  Doesn’t work that way and is a long process as our emotional development lets God work IN us and through us, And if by grace, then it is no more of works; otherwise works is no more works.  Romans 11-16.  If we mix grace and works it is a like comparison to water and oil, then through law, whereby, Christ died at the Cross needlessly and in vain.  If right living comes by SELF, then He lives needlessly inside you and you give credit to your OWN righteousness.  We begin our Christian walk by grace and HIS mercy that loved us, and it should continue on in our walk through God and the Holy Spirit in our lives in LOVE.  Why can’t we learn to be humble and receive HIS love and grace, to then let go of that love and give in return.  That’s what its about.  The love we receive is nothing unless we give it away.

Grace strengthens us. Although the law was holy, coming from God, it was weak through human nature and our sinfulness.  Romans 8:3.  Matthew 11:28 “Come unto me all who are heavy laden , and I will give you rest. ”  Take my yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and ye shall find rest unto your soul. All our struggles in the natural.. For what?  Self? For I can do nothing on my own in the natural including saving my own son from suicide in spite of all I did.  God had a divine plan and sometimes it may no be what we want or expect either.

We live now in a violent, sick, vile society.  Not just the media, and all the shootings, but the psychic sick books and video games as well.  Whereby, James 1:14 says, “But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away by his own lust and enticed.” This is why Jesus in overcoming temptation to avoid the Cross, prayed, “Not my will but THINE will be done” Luke 22:42.  For he told the disciples a short while earlier to “pray, that ye enter not into temptation.  Matthew 26:41.

In other words, just because you are a Christian and accepted Jesus as your Savior don’t think that everything will be perfect and you cannot get enticed into temptation.  I Corinthians 6:13 says, “Now the body is not for lust but for the Lord”.  Our bodies to be the “temple of God”.


Something always spoke to me,                                                                                                                   Something always loved me,                                                                                                                         Something needed me…so                                                                                                                           Much I didn’t know.

Somehow He spoke His love,                                                                                                                         Somehow He drew me in,                                                                                                                             Someone who doubted so.                                                                                                                           How He loved, I didn’t know, I didn’t know.

God, you gave it all to me,                                                                                                                             Your love, your heart for man,                                                                                                                     Your very destiny,                                                                                                                                            God,  I need and love you so.

Something, I had arise in me,                                                                                                                       Something salvations pull on me,                                                                                                                 Something, I’ll always thank you for,                                                                                                           No matter  what,  I’ll love you so.

J. Worthen 1/2000

When we choose to surrender our will completely before God, and give up self and let the Holy Spirit guide us we are giving God humility.  This is what He wants for God loves a  humble  spirit.  If we hang onto self, it won’t work because of our sin nature from Adam  and the imperfection of human will power.  Proverbs 16:18-19 “Pride goes before the fall. God loves a  humble spirit.”

We can’t love with Gods agape love by ourselves.  We can’t be perfectly patient by  ourselves.  But with Jesus Christ within us we can!  He is ready, willing and able.  But, he will only take over the controls to the degree that we let  him.  I’ve done it in he natural, I’ve been around that mountain over and over.  No thank you, as the price is too high and so is the chastisement.  I wanted to grow in God in HIS  timetable, HIS way, as I am ready in my development in HIS word.  If we understand just that?  He will do the rest.  He wants us to have an “I’ll never give up attitude!”   That’s what will glorify those we meet and witness  to.  Humility and a total absence of self.

Sometimes God holds back because our prayers involve another person.  Maybe OUR plans and prayers are different  than God’s.  Maybe our prayers could have irreparable harm for another if we had our way, or they just aren’t ready.  We don’t know Gods reasoning.  He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever He does prospers. Psalm 1:1-3. For only He knows the future.  In this long life, with painful splits, and deaths, I got nothing I ever asked for, but, everything I needed, including healing and love. He and He alone holds all the keys.  Thank  you Lord for all you have  done for me.

Restoration Road 2003



Salvation And Misconceptions

Salvation I believe comes from a longing, a need, a hunger for something or someone else to be our rock (other than ourselves and the world) our fortress. A supernatural power with the promise of eternal life, we all need. We all want love, acceptance, and someone to care about us. Unfortunately, in our lives we cannot always depend on family, or one another.  It sometimes just doesn’t work out that way.  It took me many years of floundering trying to do things in the natural and self to finally understand.

I remember seeing preachers  on tv after crumbled  marriages, and my father’s death.  I watched one evangelist and didn’t know one iota of what he was preaching about.  I only knew that by that time I felt alone (with a toddler) and I needed desperately.  Whatever this man had, his faith, the gifts of the Holy Spirit, I wanted it all.  When he prayed that salvation message over the tv screen, I went down on my knees and accepted Christ as my savior.  Late when my daughter lay in the hospital after an accident, I say this preacher up in Portland Maine, and received prayer and confirmation.  From then on, I was born again, and my life began anew in Jesus.

Jesus Christ lived for thirty years as a young man who was a carpenter.  At the end of his thirty years, He was then called by God to start his public ministry.  He was baptized in the Holy Spirit and He fasted 40 days.  By the time of the Last Supper when he went up to the Mount of Olives in the Garden of Gethsemane, he was about to pay an agonizing prize.

The magnitude of that price was horrific. When he prayed Matthew 26:39 “Father, if it is possible take this cup away from me.”  But I want your will not mine.  He knew that He would have to suffer a tremendous physical price. As many beatings followed by a horrible, agonizing crucifixion.   Even worse, He knew the price that had to be paid in the spiritual realm.  Jesus, who had never sinned, knew that He had to actually become sin in order to pay the price for our sins.  “God made him who had no sin to be sin for us. So that in Him we might become the righteousness of God “.  II Corinthians 5:21.

His agony was so great that He actually sweat blood.  His blood vessels broke and blood was excreted through his sweat glands.  God sent an angel to strengthen Him.  Then an angel from heaven appeared and strengthened him, for he was in such agony of spirit that he broke into a sweat of blood, with great drops falling to the ground as he prayed more and more earnestly. Luke 22:43-44.  No one preaches the blood anymore.  The blood shed at the cross, Jesus life was sacrificed as the last blood offering.

Somehow, the impact of that hit me even harder with my sons suicide.  His life too, in misunderstandings was sacrificed unnecessarily.  I believe with all my heart that his blood cried out for justice and vindication of his bi-polar from the grave.  Those that have been murdered, or those victims in terrorist attacks, those children of sex slaves, dying, those who lost lives  on the battlefield.  Their blood cries out from the grave.  Because as I state later, death is not cheap with God!

We do not have a right to complain over our circumstances and wallow in self after we have become saved.  Jesus paid such a price for our sins. He died that we might live and live IN HIM.  None of us will ever be perfect as He in this lifetime…for we all come short.  But, we have no right to take  our salvation so lightly.  When we are saved, we must lose self.  It becomes, “THINE will be done!”  The Lord’s supper not ours!

If God is love, then WHY does He love us?   Because He IS love He cannot keep from loving us. He will love us no matter what.  None of us, in all our sins and problems are alien to Him, and that includes my 19 year old suicidal son, his baby half sister, just as much as my other children still alive.  He knew my BJ in my  womb, bi-polar and all.  When I consciously unsaved that night when he was conceived, I asked God, “am I doing the right thing?” He knew right then and there, all the problems that we would eventually face with his illness.  And he knew with my oldest as well, and the Greek heritage from my children’s father all the problems and all the estrangements that would ensue.

I believe God wants the best for us because he loves us.   I also believe that it is hard for women especially, who come out of various situations, to accept a loving God as their father, if they haven’t had that in the natural.  If you haven’t known a real earthly father, then you put a block of resistance to the magnitude of our Heavenly  Father.  I think this Is where a lot of churches fall in ministering to these people.  I just pray that one day this revelation gets taught. I thank God I  had a loving  early father.  It was easier for me, and I fought young, even feminism, and unsaved not to have victim thinking.   Poor me, me, me,  me , the world owes me, take , take, take. Wallow in self pity. I’ve seen it over and over.  Self esteem comes not just through a counseling process, but the enveloping compassion and joy of God the Father, as these women, who came out of abuse especially, are unable to trust again.

If you’ve ever been stabbed in the back, you’ll know where I’m coming from.  That friend, perhaps an ex employer, a spouse or ex.  When that little form of manipulation and control gets carried down with this little put down techniques, all the smooth talk, while behind your back they try to destroy you.  You cry yourself to sleep, “how could  he/she do this to me? ” They can’t sit down in the Spirit of Christ and work out their disagreements.  But, it’s impossible to be truly holy without honoring our Lord’s command that we love one another.  If you love God with all your heart, then you MUST love your neighbor as yourself.  Matthew 22:37-40.  If a man say, I love God and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he that loves not who he has seen, how can he love God for whom he has not seen?

It is difficult therefore, to love others.  if we don’t love ourselves because as one once said on love being true only if it is given away.  Also one step further, if we don’t love ourselves, we can’t give away what we don’t have.  Then we becoming self-centered – always thinking about ourselves.  We need to balance that area of self and giving of self.   I have always been a giver, but, know in my spirit when God wants me alone.  Alone in HIM shutting everything else out.

Loving and obeying demands some “suffering in the flesh.” That is why so many today are growing cold. Matthew 24:12 Cold love is words without action.  Words are easy, but action requires a sacrifice. Remember hearing “talk is cheap?” Well love, is expensive if given away. True love costs something. They have to let go of the past and trust God with faith.  This is true of a lot of Christians and I believe that what we come out of sometimes stops the growth of God. But He will never forsake you and  will always be there to hold you up.  John 4:12 indicates when we love others, the love God has invested in us is finally doing what God intended all along.  Love is not complete until it is flowing back to others.

Some that are Christians are so afraid to witness the Lord to the lost.  But, in love and compassion, for love covers a multitude of sins.  None of us are perfect.  No matter what there is no excuse to lose your life to darkness and hell.  Even many preachers have made plenty of mistakes and have paid a public price. But is that an excuse for us?  job 8:13 says, “The hypocrites hope shall perish.”  Matthew 7:1 “Judge not lest ye be judged. ” BUT it also says to test the spirits!  Therefore, judgment is not blind.  And the book of Romans is all the law. Wherefore Jesus is our advocate.  I trust my Lord. As one day we will  all of us stand before God in judgment.  There are 2 judgement seats.  First, for us Christians, for our Crowns.  That is what did we do in our lives since we were saved, for the Kingdom?  Did we witness, preach the word, love,  and STAND for righteousness?  Our Crowns, will determine where we will be in Heaven.  Then there is the other judgment.  This the Great White Throne Judgment Seat in which every hater, every atheist, ever murderer, every Communist, and evil doer in this world will stand in  front of God Almighty and be judged before being cast into the pit of hell forever and ever.  However, though it is up to God to make ALL final judgments, but we are to constantly test the spirits; are they of YOU Lord and the Holy Spirit or  from Satan and his minions and imps.  That discernment that we all should have could be our life or death.

Salvation should be freedom to love and freedom from the past and sins.  But, just as God grants us that freedom, doesn’t mean we are to forget.  You can’t forget the pain Jesus got you out of, but, you CAN use it for a ministry. I wrote on here, “Hiding the Stain” . How can  you minister and witness to others if you don’t say all God got you out of?  You can’t. So that pain, stain, sin, IS your ministry.  So then I used to hear “you don’t pray for the dead.”  Well, in one sense yes, they no longer can be saved, its too late.  But, we can pray for their souls to be at peace, especially death by horrific circumstances, such as our terrorist attacks. And children under the age of accountability.  So when in doubt, I study.  In Matthew 22:32 Jesus said, “I am the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob? God is not the dead, but of the living. ” But, it didn’t say not to pray for a soul that died.  Matthew 22:29-30 says, “Ye do err, not knowing the scriptures, nor the power of God.  For in resurrection they neither marry, nor are given, in marriage, but are angels of God in Heaven.”  There is  nothing that says we are not to pray for someone when they die.  That final judgment belongs to God alone!

The Bible further states in I Peter 4:4-6 when Peter said this, “Wherein they think it strange that ye run not with them to the same excess of not speaking evil of you.  Who shall give account to him that is ready to judge the quick and the dead.  For this cause was the gospel preached ALSO to them that are dead, that they might be judged according to men in the flesh, but live according to God in the spirit”.    For He is still a God of Love, Mercy, and Grace!

Is there persecution involved in being saved? Sometimes, especially now we are seeing it more frequently with Muslims killing Christians, now all over the world.  Missionaries have met their demise and have been captured, murdered, raped and held hostages for decades.  Matthew 5:11 says “There is a blessing  connected with it”.  Matthew 5:12 ” It lifts the soul to the plane of the prophets.”  II Timothy 3:12 “All Godly people expect it.”  Revelations 2:10 “it leads to a crown”  II Peter 2:9 says, “The Lord knows how to deliver the Godly out of temptations. Also Peter said, Glory in  our persecutions I Peter 4:14″If ye be reproached for the name of Christ, HAPPY are ye for the spirit of glory and of God rests upon you.  How many of us can sing praises through our troubles or our persecutions? But, THAT is what we are told to do.  I could finally SAY praises to God  after my son’s death. but sing?  Salvation and coming to the Lord is the easy part.

A warm heart produces a prayer of compassion.  Revelations 4: 15-16 ” I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot.  I would rather thou were cold or hot so then because you are lukewarm,  I will spew thee out of my mouth.  In other words, you won’t make the Rapture, which could happen now, anytime.  THAT is a heavy price to pay for walking in the law and  legalism, the world, blasphemy, sin, verses walking in the Holy Spirit and love.

Sinners Prayer:

Dear Lord Jesus,  I now realize am a sinner.  I ask you Lord for forgiveness and truly repent of my past. I accept the fact that you died for me on the rugged Cross of Calvary and went through so much suffering to show your love for  me and bear my sins.  You shed your blood on that Cross because you loved me.  I  now open my hearts door and receive you as  Saviour  and  Lord of my life. Please take  full  control o me and  help me to be the kind  of Christian  you  want me to be.  I ask this all in Jesus name Father God and that you’ll  lead me to a church that you want me to be.  I love you God, thank  you Jesus, Amen.  


**From my published book Restoration Road copyright 2003

Restoration Road, by JE Worthen (c)2004